So for the next week I am going to try to write down all of my really random thoughts.
See since Mike is gone and I am all lacking for an actual adult conversation... I think stuff...
Sometimes I think very profound thoughts... sometimes things occur to me that I should have alrready known, but I didn't and I come up with it all by myself. i think I am smart and then I realize I am just slow.
Anyway, So far from today I have some real doozies. I hope I can stick it out for a week and post all of my magical brain farts for your entertainment. I hope you will laugh. That's the intention.
I will still blog this week if the mood strikes me to do so, but if not see you on Sunday with a weeks worth of "Holy crap! Did she just say that?"
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
I didn't start out planning to write so much.
Ok so I am about to make a recipe I apparently haven't made since before my mom died. How do I know this? It's her recipe and my recipe card is so poorly written that if I had made it before she died I would have called her to fix my recipe card. She's been gone for over 2 years now and I almost tried to call her. That Sucks.
What else...
Oh My birthday was awesome and our anniversary was kinds awesome too. I mean it was broken since Mike was y'know.... not in the country.. but he did send me the most beautiful bouquet. He knows me so well. It was colorful. DON'T SEND ME RED ROSES... I mean not that I hate red roses... it's not that. It's just to me they're so cliche'. When Mike and I were just falling in love and he was leaving the next few days for Basic Training he had a dozen of the biggest most beautiful roses EVER sent to me. They were my first. And I did absolutely love them! And Mike was so sweet and awkward.. he ended up showing up before the roses did and hid when the flower truck showed up. I guess because he was shy. I know Mike shy... ha ha ha ha!! But I think those roses were too perfect and none have ever been as pretty or special... as far as red roses go. AAAAAnd I have also developed a love of roses of other colors. And I love love love colorful things. I also hadn't gotten flowers in a really long time.
What else. Oh my anxious self decided and then un-decided to go to college... My GI Bill Expires in 2012. And I want to get an ADA certification as a dental assistant. The Military's school isn't accredited. So since most certificate programs are 2 years I freaked and decided to interview for the assisting program at Heald College. The interview went really well and everything but there was a snag. The dental assisting program is only offered as day classes. NOT an option. The more I hear about Hawaii's public schools the more I am convinced that I have mead a great choice for Rain and Ellie.. even if we are really behind this year. We will catch up and probably be ahead of the curve (if we aren't already). So at first these pushy admissions people were looking at me like well if you can't be flexible than we don't want you... So I looked at the medical assisting program. Not actually what I want to be but at least it can be done at night and I wouldn't be wasting my GI bill right?... Well I went to Macaroni Grill with he kids and was looking over the class schedule and the possible job descriptions I just couldn't do it. I do not want to be a phlebotomist or a butt wiper nurses assistant. That is a great jumping off point but not a career... not for me. If I were say looking to become a RN or doctor than maybe I would do this in order to have work to do while I go for my RN or MD.. Like My friend Andrew who is AMAZINGLY SMART and got his CNA in HIGH SCHOOL and will be an awesome DOCTOR!!! He can go to school to be a doctor and be working in the health care field already. But that's not where I want to end up. I want to be a dental assistant... I am good at it... I like it. So I am not going to just get a degree because I should or because my benefits are running out. I just can't...
But the good news is Mike's post 9/11 GI bill can be transferred to me. So, AFTER he gets his 100% paid for while he is active duty degree and the kids are in school in hopefully a better state... (one can hope no?) I will go to a school and I will get certified and I will be a dental assistant. I no longer feel rushed. Breathe in breathe out....
Anyway I am going to try making Pisto Manchevo without a proper recipe or mom to call to help me get it right...
Approximately 2 weeks to go til Mike comes home...
What else...
Oh My birthday was awesome and our anniversary was kinds awesome too. I mean it was broken since Mike was y'know.... not in the country.. but he did send me the most beautiful bouquet. He knows me so well. It was colorful. DON'T SEND ME RED ROSES... I mean not that I hate red roses... it's not that. It's just to me they're so cliche'. When Mike and I were just falling in love and he was leaving the next few days for Basic Training he had a dozen of the biggest most beautiful roses EVER sent to me. They were my first. And I did absolutely love them! And Mike was so sweet and awkward.. he ended up showing up before the roses did and hid when the flower truck showed up. I guess because he was shy. I know Mike shy... ha ha ha ha!! But I think those roses were too perfect and none have ever been as pretty or special... as far as red roses go. AAAAAnd I have also developed a love of roses of other colors. And I love love love colorful things. I also hadn't gotten flowers in a really long time.
What else. Oh my anxious self decided and then un-decided to go to college... My GI Bill Expires in 2012. And I want to get an ADA certification as a dental assistant. The Military's school isn't accredited. So since most certificate programs are 2 years I freaked and decided to interview for the assisting program at Heald College. The interview went really well and everything but there was a snag. The dental assisting program is only offered as day classes. NOT an option. The more I hear about Hawaii's public schools the more I am convinced that I have mead a great choice for Rain and Ellie.. even if we are really behind this year. We will catch up and probably be ahead of the curve (if we aren't already). So at first these pushy admissions people were looking at me like well if you can't be flexible than we don't want you... So I looked at the medical assisting program. Not actually what I want to be but at least it can be done at night and I wouldn't be wasting my GI bill right?... Well I went to Macaroni Grill with he kids and was looking over the class schedule and the possible job descriptions I just couldn't do it. I do not want to be a phlebotomist or a butt wiper nurses assistant. That is a great jumping off point but not a career... not for me. If I were say looking to become a RN or doctor than maybe I would do this in order to have work to do while I go for my RN or MD.. Like My friend Andrew who is AMAZINGLY SMART and got his CNA in HIGH SCHOOL and will be an awesome DOCTOR!!! He can go to school to be a doctor and be working in the health care field already. But that's not where I want to end up. I want to be a dental assistant... I am good at it... I like it. So I am not going to just get a degree because I should or because my benefits are running out. I just can't...
But the good news is Mike's post 9/11 GI bill can be transferred to me. So, AFTER he gets his 100% paid for while he is active duty degree and the kids are in school in hopefully a better state... (one can hope no?) I will go to a school and I will get certified and I will be a dental assistant. I no longer feel rushed. Breathe in breathe out....
Anyway I am going to try making Pisto Manchevo without a proper recipe or mom to call to help me get it right...
Approximately 2 weeks to go til Mike comes home...
Monday, January 25, 2010
hmmm what to do what to do...???
Kauai "The Garden Island"
The Smallest of the four primary islands and also the oldest.
She is 5 Million Years Old. She is green nearly everywhere you look.
She is also seen as the quietest. Where Oahu is the fastest and most modern, the big island is largest and rugged, and Maui is the place for beautiful resorts.
Little Kauai... I would like to meet you.
Assuming we go on a Friday morning early and leave Saturday evening late... we can only see so much. And I am conceding that seeing and doing are two different things. For instance there is the Wailua river. This is THE place I want to see. And ideally I would love to rent a Kayak and meander up the river just Mike and I and find the Fern Grotto, a beautiful cave bedecked with hanging ferns that is accessible only by boat or kayak up the river. However this is time consuming. Kayaking up the river while perfect and private is just not an option. So I am thinking we will take the Wailua River Cruise... In this circumstance the tour takes only an hour and twenty minutes. This is the thing I want to do.... the only thing... so now we are wide open to go and see and do. But what....?
There is a bus tour... now we are NOT doing a bus tour but the itinerary for the bus tour is right up my alley.
Waimea Canyon ("the grand canyon of the pacific)
Spouting Horn.. a huge blowhole apparently a do not miss...
Opekaa Falls
and the Hanepepe Valley
And somewhere in there they also fit in the River... so if the bus can do it we can do it.
We just need to build the itinerary, rent the car, get there early in the morning, and get our butts in gear.
On the Second day I am thinking I would like to explore Princeville and Hanalei Bay. Maybe go horseback riding then Just relax on the beach of the bay then maybe wander around the town and grab lunch. Sounds kinda chill right?
We are thinking about using our hotel as base for the second day as well. It means paying for a second night and not actually using it, but to be able to go exploring and possibly get salty and sandy and have a shower to go back to before dinner and our flight home seems worth it.
Regrettably there just isn't enough time to see the Na Pali Coast. Which is supposed to be beautiful as well. But who knows. I think I will like the driving around the best. I know it seems silly but Mike and I are really happiest when we just go for a drive.
Ok now if any of you have been to Kauai and thinks we can skip something or are certain we must see something else this is a great place to mention it. I am just so stoked to be getting away.
Maika'i Kaua'i, hemolele i ka maile....
oh and I gotta wonder about this whole Menehune thing... Menehune of legend are like little hawaiian leprechauns. Most of their storiesare based out of Kauai.... the greenest island... hmmmmmm
The Smallest of the four primary islands and also the oldest.
She is 5 Million Years Old. She is green nearly everywhere you look.
She is also seen as the quietest. Where Oahu is the fastest and most modern, the big island is largest and rugged, and Maui is the place for beautiful resorts.
Little Kauai... I would like to meet you.
Assuming we go on a Friday morning early and leave Saturday evening late... we can only see so much. And I am conceding that seeing and doing are two different things. For instance there is the Wailua river. This is THE place I want to see. And ideally I would love to rent a Kayak and meander up the river just Mike and I and find the Fern Grotto, a beautiful cave bedecked with hanging ferns that is accessible only by boat or kayak up the river. However this is time consuming. Kayaking up the river while perfect and private is just not an option. So I am thinking we will take the Wailua River Cruise... In this circumstance the tour takes only an hour and twenty minutes. This is the thing I want to do.... the only thing... so now we are wide open to go and see and do. But what....?
There is a bus tour... now we are NOT doing a bus tour but the itinerary for the bus tour is right up my alley.
Waimea Canyon ("the grand canyon of the pacific)
Spouting Horn.. a huge blowhole apparently a do not miss...
Opekaa Falls
and the Hanepepe Valley
And somewhere in there they also fit in the River... so if the bus can do it we can do it.
We just need to build the itinerary, rent the car, get there early in the morning, and get our butts in gear.
On the Second day I am thinking I would like to explore Princeville and Hanalei Bay. Maybe go horseback riding then Just relax on the beach of the bay then maybe wander around the town and grab lunch. Sounds kinda chill right?
We are thinking about using our hotel as base for the second day as well. It means paying for a second night and not actually using it, but to be able to go exploring and possibly get salty and sandy and have a shower to go back to before dinner and our flight home seems worth it.
Regrettably there just isn't enough time to see the Na Pali Coast. Which is supposed to be beautiful as well. But who knows. I think I will like the driving around the best. I know it seems silly but Mike and I are really happiest when we just go for a drive.
Ok now if any of you have been to Kauai and thinks we can skip something or are certain we must see something else this is a great place to mention it. I am just so stoked to be getting away.
Maika'i Kaua'i, hemolele i ka maile....
oh and I gotta wonder about this whole Menehune thing... Menehune of legend are like little hawaiian leprechauns. Most of their storiesare based out of Kauai.... the greenest island... hmmmmmm
Friday, January 22, 2010
Facebook is stupid or People are stupid... Can't seem to pick a title.
So have you ever seen the T-shirt that reads "Facebook ruined my marriage"?
I think it's a hilarious t-shirt. Luckily for me the words don't ring true. While my marriage is just fine, there are some dumb as women out there who apparently don't know the first thing about how to talk to another woman's husband.
So here's a quick lesson to the dumb ass girls that Mike apparently hung out with back in the day.
A: Telling Mike you had a crush on him back in high school is fine. It's cute and apparently you wanted to get that off your chest. I had crushes on some of my FB friends back in high school too.. it's not a big deal.
-- Telling him that you wanted any part of him inside any part of you>>> NOT OK...
B: If we were friends... even aquaintences in High school and you were also friends with Mike that's fine. But if you are of the opposite sex and you only friend request Mike well that's going to lead me to a couple of conclusions... A: we weren't as good a friends as I thought. B: you're snubbing me on purpose and expect my HUSBAND to participate in the snubbing. Hello!! Mike and I have been together for 14 years. Did you actually think that would be ok? You must be inbred or something.
Ok so there's my rant.
I think it's a hilarious t-shirt. Luckily for me the words don't ring true. While my marriage is just fine, there are some dumb as women out there who apparently don't know the first thing about how to talk to another woman's husband.
So here's a quick lesson to the dumb ass girls that Mike apparently hung out with back in the day.
A: Telling Mike you had a crush on him back in high school is fine. It's cute and apparently you wanted to get that off your chest. I had crushes on some of my FB friends back in high school too.. it's not a big deal.
-- Telling him that you wanted any part of him inside any part of you>>> NOT OK...
B: If we were friends... even aquaintences in High school and you were also friends with Mike that's fine. But if you are of the opposite sex and you only friend request Mike well that's going to lead me to a couple of conclusions... A: we weren't as good a friends as I thought. B: you're snubbing me on purpose and expect my HUSBAND to participate in the snubbing. Hello!! Mike and I have been together for 14 years. Did you actually think that would be ok? You must be inbred or something.
Ok so there's my rant.
on a brighter note Mike will be home soon. And we are planning a romantic getaway to the island of Kauai. It's is known as the garden island and has some of the most visually stunning sights in all of the Hawaian Island Chain.
I look forward to going but I also look forward to planning the trip out. Mike and I love to plan things together. And it will be fun just talking things through. And hearing what it is that interests the other.
We're also talking about having more fun around here. Just doing things that are interactive with one another. Instead of just me laying on the beach I am going to get up and toss a football with Mike or throw a frisbee with the kids. Als o Mike and I both want to cook more together. I love cooking with Mike. It's always cool when he acts as my chef's assistant. We laugh a lot!!!
Things I look forward to and things take for granted y'know?
Ellie is making great strides these last couple of weeks with therapy and her medications. I can't believe how little it takes to really help her. Rain has decided that she would like to take some art classes. This will be challenging for me to find something that will suit a nine year old Diva. but when have you known me to not do what my kids want within reason?
Oh!!! I and the Tax return this year........ (drum roll please).......almost 9700 bucks!!!! What the what?!?!?!? The only good part of a deployment for sure.
Love to all my peeps!!!
less than a month to go!!!!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
New year... time for an update
I know it’s been a long time since I have blogged but it’s a new year and December was full of ups and downs. While I have learned a lot in the last month I will not reflect on all if it because I am going to keep private things private. I will say that I have learned in the last month that I am way too self conscious and I have a tendency to allow bad habits and possibly even reward the offender for having them. Well that stops now. I also learned that while Oahu is beautiful and has a lot to offer, it still doesn’t replace home. Christmas time reminded me of just how utterly alone I am here and with Mike being gone, I just couldn’t get into the holiday spirit. Yes the tree went up and yes the kids got presents, but otherwise it was not festive or merry. Christmas Eve, we ate Subway for dinner and on Christmas Day I watched the Lord of the Rings Trilogy and whipped up some nachos. No fancy Christmas dinner here. I would be the only one to appreciate it. You see: the more effort and love I put into a meal the less the kids like it. So Nacho’s it was. There was a real sense that I was indeed on an island; one unto myself. And while everyone was celebrating and cooking and feasting and telling getting presents, I was watching the Lord of the Rings on my island. Well, to hell with that. Next year if Mike happens to be gone again I am taking my happy butt to the mainland so the kids and I can have a real Christmas surrounded by friends and family. That is the way it is supposed to be and I got ripped off.
Let’s see what else? Our Betta finally died. He never went belly up though. He was just kinda chillin in his place in the fishbowl and then the next day he was still chillin… only not breathing. So down the toilet he went. Meanwhile our algae eater had full reign of the tank. Good for him. We then went out and bought 3 Guppies. One was names Comet, one was Yellow Belly and the last I named Little Mike because I thought it was funny. When we got up in the morning the guppies were still there but there was no sign of our algae eater. No dead fish, no bones, just gone. He is still missing and if you see him tell him to come home. His name is Dot PP… I know… but that is the name Ellie gave him. Maybe that’s why he ran away. Well after a week yellow belly and little Mike died. And now we have a new guppy named Rough shot. He and Comet are still alive and haven’t run away. So hopefully our fish troubles are over for now.
Oh! I met Dog the Bounty Hunter… he’s a super nice guy. And Beth is super sweet as well. Glad for the experience. Glad I am not a fugitive.
I also got a sweet haircut. After the Awful one I got about a year ago I have been trying desperately to hide it with extensions or hats…. Well it grew out and it started looking mullet-ish and really frazzled. So I didn’t know what to do but I hated my hair. So I went to the salon and talked to this lady Tina who looked at it and said it needed to be reshaped and styled a different way. So she sniped off the mullet and showed me some tricks with a round brush and my straightening iron and I LOVE IT!!!! It really looks put together and longer. And it’s funny because it looks longer now even though she cut off the ugly back thing so I am thrilled about it. And I have reached my weight goal. So now it’s time to get ripped. So now you’re all updated and know what is going on. Soon Mike will be home and my life will feel normal.
Looking forward to making 2010 better.
Fin!
Let’s see what else? Our Betta finally died. He never went belly up though. He was just kinda chillin in his place in the fishbowl and then the next day he was still chillin… only not breathing. So down the toilet he went. Meanwhile our algae eater had full reign of the tank. Good for him. We then went out and bought 3 Guppies. One was names Comet, one was Yellow Belly and the last I named Little Mike because I thought it was funny. When we got up in the morning the guppies were still there but there was no sign of our algae eater. No dead fish, no bones, just gone. He is still missing and if you see him tell him to come home. His name is Dot PP… I know… but that is the name Ellie gave him. Maybe that’s why he ran away. Well after a week yellow belly and little Mike died. And now we have a new guppy named Rough shot. He and Comet are still alive and haven’t run away. So hopefully our fish troubles are over for now.
Oh! I met Dog the Bounty Hunter… he’s a super nice guy. And Beth is super sweet as well. Glad for the experience. Glad I am not a fugitive.
I also got a sweet haircut. After the Awful one I got about a year ago I have been trying desperately to hide it with extensions or hats…. Well it grew out and it started looking mullet-ish and really frazzled. So I didn’t know what to do but I hated my hair. So I went to the salon and talked to this lady Tina who looked at it and said it needed to be reshaped and styled a different way. So she sniped off the mullet and showed me some tricks with a round brush and my straightening iron and I LOVE IT!!!! It really looks put together and longer. And it’s funny because it looks longer now even though she cut off the ugly back thing so I am thrilled about it. And I have reached my weight goal. So now it’s time to get ripped. So now you’re all updated and know what is going on. Soon Mike will be home and my life will feel normal.
Looking forward to making 2010 better.
Fin!
Friday, December 11, 2009
I figured I haven't blogged in a while.
So Disney World was Awesome as was my visit home in general. I ate alot of the food I wanted to eat and discovered that in some cases I am missing nothing by being here in the Food 
Department. i though I missed Sonic til I ate it again. and as much as I like the beverages the food is so greasy and gross. IN some cases I was happy to eat and eat. Blue crabs made me happy.
My Trip to Dixie Crossraods was also pleasant in the food department but unpleasant in the service department. Ahhhh Titusville. I went to visit my Mother and I left her some flowers. I saw friends and apparently made enemies as well. whoda thunk it..
And now I am back to reality...
Right now I am thinking this Christmas thing is crap and I am in a horrid mood and I am sick and I am tired and I am not getting back into the swing of things because I am bummed out and sick. And although this blog is a great place to let things go and share with people what is going on sometimes you just can't air your dirty laundry for the world and there has been so much going on in the last couple of weeks that have truly been like a giant smack down to my ego and my feelings and to my value. I would love to vent on here the problems I am dealing with but I will not do that. Just know that I am not in myhappy place right now and I am being a bit of a recluse and I am dealing with my situation in the best way I know how. Which right now doesn't consist of much. But I will pick myself up and get my head straight and fix my problems. I have already begun that process and I am now basically loking forward to February when my life will feel normal again and I won't feel so isolated.
So there's my blog for now.. Sorry it's such a bummer. I bet you all think I am bipolar. Oh well.
Monday, November 23, 2009
My Trip home thus far
Ok I am going to try to recall everything but I doubt I will do this trip Justice
Lets Start with he flying home.
I was in a tizzy trying to leave for the Airport. I just kept thinking I was forgetting something. But so far all I have discovered missing was my Mascara and hairspray.. so all in all not bad.
Rain and Ellie behaved like two amazing angels as we went through security ans waited for our plane to board in Honolulu.
The Plane was Packed. But it was cool to have a TV in the seat in front of me. I watched the Time Traveller's Wife and 500 Days of Summer and The Proposal. Sleep eluded me and Rain and Ellie were so uncomfortable.
When i finally arrived home I unpacked and settled in then at 4pm Titusville time I crashed.
I woke up the next morning and drank like a whole pot of coffee and went to pick Dad up at the train station. We went out for cuban cuisine which was awful... dang I school the Mar Azul.
We went to Saint Augustine to be a part of Lauren's wedding. One of these days the pictures will be up. Lauren was a machine. She did EVERYTHING for the wedding. All but the cooking. And SHE made her cake. Just so proud to call her my best friend. She was a beautiful bride and Rain and Ellie didn't embarrass me and I looked pretty good myself. We had a blast. I cherish all of the little moments Lauren and I had that day. And I even got asked to make a speech. So I did. And I cried... but that's how I roll.
Sunday was wet and chilly in St A so we came home and I did Laundry and napped. Now I am preparing to take my children and Father To Walt Disney World. Goodbye leisurely vaykay, Hello Aching back and feet. But I heart Disney so much. I am about to have a really fun time.
Aloha!
Lets Start with he flying home.
I was in a tizzy trying to leave for the Airport. I just kept thinking I was forgetting something. But so far all I have discovered missing was my Mascara and hairspray.. so all in all not bad.
Rain and Ellie behaved like two amazing angels as we went through security ans waited for our plane to board in Honolulu.
The Plane was Packed. But it was cool to have a TV in the seat in front of me. I watched the Time Traveller's Wife and 500 Days of Summer and The Proposal. Sleep eluded me and Rain and Ellie were so uncomfortable.
When i finally arrived home I unpacked and settled in then at 4pm Titusville time I crashed.
I woke up the next morning and drank like a whole pot of coffee and went to pick Dad up at the train station. We went out for cuban cuisine which was awful... dang I school the Mar Azul.
We went to Saint Augustine to be a part of Lauren's wedding. One of these days the pictures will be up. Lauren was a machine. She did EVERYTHING for the wedding. All but the cooking. And SHE made her cake. Just so proud to call her my best friend. She was a beautiful bride and Rain and Ellie didn't embarrass me and I looked pretty good myself. We had a blast. I cherish all of the little moments Lauren and I had that day. And I even got asked to make a speech. So I did. And I cried... but that's how I roll.
Sunday was wet and chilly in St A so we came home and I did Laundry and napped. Now I am preparing to take my children and Father To Walt Disney World. Goodbye leisurely vaykay, Hello Aching back and feet. But I heart Disney so much. I am about to have a really fun time.
Aloha!
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